Thursday, March 15, 2007
Angel Boy Moses
Abraham and Moses on Momma
Abraham at 1 1/2 months old
I sit here tonight reflecting on the past year and a half that my family has been thru. It wasn't that long ago that I was sitting in the NICU waiting for the day that I'd take my boys home. Sitting in their room day after day, watching the monitors that told me what was happening with them - praying that God would take care of them when I left each night. Dreaming of what they'd be when they grew up, the memories that we would make together. Those days were some of the hardest days of my life. We experienced the highest highs and the lowest lows. We learned to take it one day, one hour even at a time. It often felt like we'd be there forever.
And then one day Jesus took Moses home to be with him. No parent should ever have to bury their child, especially one so young. I went thru all sorts of emotions - sorrow, relief, disappointment, anger. But God in His Grace and Mercy covered all my emotions and made it all as "ok" as possible for me.
The next thing we knew they were telling us they were taking Abraham off of the monitors and the oxygen because he was ready to go home. One day we were visiting the next we were driving our miracle home.
I say all of this to explain my Thankful Thursday post. There was so much to be thanful for back then, even in the middle of all the uncertainty.
I'm thankful that the boys had fantastic care while they were in the NICU.
I'm so thankful for two nurses in particular - Lauren and Alice who were the boys' primary nurses. They were outstanding.
I'm thankful for the wisdom of the doctors and nurses who cared for the boys. Without them and their concern for the boys and for us, I don't think we would have been as calm as we were.
I'm thankful for their cautiousness in sending Abraham home - making sure he was REALLY ready and that WE were ready too.
I'm thankful for Dr. Helau who requested a 2nd echocardiogram to look at Moses' heart. Without his insight, Moses could have very well passed away at GBMC where there was no pediatric heart specialist.
I'm thankful for Dr. Vricella who performed the open heart surgery on Moses at Hopkins. He had never done the surgery on such a tiny baby but he was willing to do it and give Moses a chance.
I'm thankful for the Child Life women who were so kind and gracious in taking care of Moses after he went HOME. We got hand and foot prints and a lock of hair and we got to hold him for as long as we needed to. I was able to start the healing process because of them.
I'm thankful for Holly Mc Comas at the funeral home who made the process of making decisions for Moses short and simple.
I'm thankful for Pastor Mike and the message of LIFE and CELEBRATION that he brought at the cemetary. I'm thankful for the friends and family that braved the cold to support our family.
I'm eternally thankful that my sweet Abraham is a happy and healthy 16 month old. He is the light of our lives. I'm thankful that he is hitting his milestones and is doing so well.
He really is our miracle.
My heart is just full to overflowing with thanks to the Father for HIS goodness and for HIS grace that was and is continually pouring over us. I pray that we will be good parents and that Abraham will grow up to love the Lord with his whole heart.
My Miracle Abraham